today was rather uneventful, i think. i know i'm supposed to be appreciating every little thing, but sometimes when i try to think back on the day, i have no idea what happened. i did some hair, that was cool. then i ate lunch, also kind of cool... i guess. looked at things on the internet, actually... pretty cool. i did come across (i.e. stalk out) jeffery self's blog, which is really smart and funny and cute and i already shared the link on facebook, but this entry in particular really made me smile :]
i'm not on tumblr or i would comment and tell him how his blog made me feel better about being lame.
in other news, this just happened between my break of typing that, and typing this...
creepy noises from the closet 10 feet away from us
alicia and kelsi look at the closet and look at eachother with wide eyes
alicia: what is that???
kelsi: ... stuff... falling in the closet, because i got something out of there earlier... i guess?
alicia: i hate you!
kelsi: well i mean, i guess that's what it is...
alicia: it was really scary! it was like Paranormal Activity shit
kelsi: so... not scary at all.
alicia: i thought our ceiling was going to start moving and our ouija board was going to light on fire.
fearful silence for a moment
ALICIA SCREAMS FUCKING BLOODY MURDER OUT OF FUCKING NOWHERE!!!!!!!!!
kelsi stares at her
kelsi: ...what???
alicia: i heard something, i was really scared!
kelsi: heard what?
alicia: a noise
kelsi: there was no noise
alicia: i was really scared! did i look scared?
kelsi: *laughing* yes...
alicia: i thought you were going to scream too and we were both going to die but then i looked at you and you were just staring at me...
both laughing
alicia: i think you really scared me with that split pea soup thing. at least we know i can scream really loud
kelsi: yeah, but it's 11 'o clock at night, and no one is helping us
the point of that was... there was no point. really... other than, i guess, if there is a murderer in our closet, he could easily kill us, and no one would save us because you can scream fucking loud enough to wake all of seattle and no one will care. so, if i don't show up to work tomorrow, that's why. also, i am still high on adrenaline and doubt that i will be able to sleep for a while now.
in OTHER other news, i'm fucking excited because my "flesh is for zombies" shirt - birthday present 2 of 4 to and from myself - arrived in the mail today and i'm totally going to wear it tomorrrowwwww, yeeeah boi!!! she shipped it out hella fast. the rest of the stuff i ordered won't arrive until after my birthday probably. tomorrow will be the first day in a week that i haven't worn my elliott smith hoodie (present 1 of 4) or my acrylicana jewelry since i got them last week. or maybe i will wear my hoodie, cuz it's awesome. :] also picked up Preacher #3 with my 40% off coupon. if you shop at Borders, i highly recommend getting a rewards card. it costs nada, and you get coupons like every friggin day.
that's... really all i've got. like i said, the rest of the day is kind of a blur. oh, other than i watched the movie Hostel for the first time. they puke a lot in it, which is pretty disgusting.
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same thing we do every night, pinky.
washing dishes for an hour or so straight ain't so bad when you are wearing an awesome billy joel shirt, listening to elliott smith quite loudly, and have a big ol' bottle of bleach to pour into the sink to cover up the smell of week-old-rotting-whatever-the-cuss-that-used-to-be, so as not to vomit up cheesecake and coffee. cheesecake and coffee are not to be wasted.
aside from that, today consisted of:
1. sleeping in way too late, as blogged earlier
2. drinking 48 oz of coffee within about a 20 minute time span
3. watching mama mia, and getting really pissed off at pierce brosnan for existing
4. watching fido. awesomeee.
5. eating cheesecake, as one does.
6. watching tons and tons and tons of jeffery and cole casserole. heart heart heart.
6. realizing... hey, all i have consumed today was coffee and cheesecake and it's now past 10pm.
6. being bored enough to write about any of this.
tomorrow, it is back to work, but only for 3 days this week. i decided to take of saturday and sunday, as well as monday and tuesday, in order to celebrate my birthday. i plan on celebrating my birthday by... um... uhh..... uuhhhmmmm..... well i guess i could always... hmm............... shit.
aside from that, today consisted of:
1. sleeping in way too late, as blogged earlier
2. drinking 48 oz of coffee within about a 20 minute time span
3. watching mama mia, and getting really pissed off at pierce brosnan for existing
4. watching fido. awesomeee.
5. eating cheesecake, as one does.
6. watching tons and tons and tons of jeffery and cole casserole. heart heart heart.
6. realizing... hey, all i have consumed today was coffee and cheesecake and it's now past 10pm.
6. being bored enough to write about any of this.
tomorrow, it is back to work, but only for 3 days this week. i decided to take of saturday and sunday, as well as monday and tuesday, in order to celebrate my birthday. i plan on celebrating my birthday by... um... uhh..... uuhhhmmmm..... well i guess i could always... hmm............... shit.
it's like the sound of a tree falling in the woods with one hand clapping against it
things to remember, while i am thinking of them, but almost too tired to write about them. i hope at least some of this makes sense.
firstly, no packages today :( i got my acrylicana jewelry from my sister and my elliott smith hoodie from myself on friday. i'm expecting to get something in the mail from ishmael very soon. birthdays presents are nice, not because i need material things -usually if there is something i want, i will just buy it for myself - but because it shows that someone was thinking of you at a time when you weren't in the same room together and weren't actively speaking with eachother. that makes me feel good. lately, especially, in the midst of falling back into depression, it is nice to know that i am thought of occasionally, by a few people at least, whether it's my birthday or not. receiving mail must be one of my favorite things in the world. if anyone really wants to make my day, either send me mail or make me some sort of art, i live for those things. i was thinking about getting back in to doing mail swaps again. it was always fun to work on some silly holiday card or collage or themed art for someone and to get one or more of the same in return. it's an extremely pleasurable way to kill time. unfortunately, i'm not good with deadlines. and it's not quite the same as receiving personal mail from someone, or art from someone that you personally know. i treasure all of the little scraps that people have made for me. i rarely give anyone else anything i have made though, other than swaps, because... well... usually because it's not good enough. that, and i have trouble letting things go.
secondly, i had living on a prayer stuck in my head the entirety of the day, from this morning, watching a video of amanda palmer and jason webley covering it. doing laundry, going to starbucks, sitting on the bus, walking around the streets of seattle, i had playing in my head over and over "TAKE MY HAND, WE'LL MAKE IT, I SWEAR! WHOOOOA LIVING ON A PRAYER!" i just wanted to bust out all over the place.
thirdly, other than that, today was really lovely. there wasn't a bit of it that wasn't lovely. even doing laundry was lovely, other than i think i gave everyone a bit of a free show by accidentally scooping up the front of the skirt that i was wearing into my armful of laundry. it's amusing though, so, i suppose it's lovely too. i keep reminding myself of a Sylvia Plath quote, "Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I've taken for granted". i have to remind myself of it almost constantly. i guess, in a sort of stupid way, i am thinking "whatever is happening right this very moment, it may not be the best thing that has ever happened to you, but it may be the best thing that ever happens from here on out. it is entirely possible that nothing this good will ever happen again, so pay attention." but not only that. i am trying to just enjoy things. everything, in fact. i'm trying not to take things so seriously, i'm trying to live in the moment and not worry so much. it seems counter-intuitive to have to force yourself to go with the flow, but when you have spent the better part of your life fighting against the flow, it can be really difficult to just let go and live. that doesn't mean not to TRY. there is a difference. you still have to try for things, otherwise there is no point to life, and you probably won't get anything that you want. i just can't get caught up so much in things that feel like failures.
fourth...ly, the bus. the bus. the bus. i don't know if i have been on a bus that crowded before. i'm sure i have, but i wasn't so aware of it. i was proud of myself for not having my head reeling in an agoraphobic fit. i thought of easter and whole foods and very nearly having a full fledged panic attack because there were so many people, and i couldn't get away. that was probably one of my worst moments. but, it was not so bad today. the worst of it was that i had some random persons ass in my face for half the ride. that might have been be best of it, had the ass not belonged to a middle-aged woman. but no, the worst of it was the lady that went by, rolling her suitcase along behind her, and i tried to move my legs out of her way, and my hip went out, and i spent the next two minutes silently and i suppose, inconspicuously clutching my hip and the muscles that were cramping around it, in such intense pain that i really thought i was going to vomit. that was the worst of it. but it went away after a bit and the rest of the ride was nice. it was quiet. with music in my left ear, and no inane yip-yap from random bus-goers in the right. sitting across from people you don't know is always somewhat awkward. there is nowhere to look really. i look at their shoes. there was a girl across from me with cute, brown flats on. i stared at that girls shoes so hard she might have felt me burning through them. before she got off the bus, i had a connection to those shoes. i knew those shoes like i know these woods like i know the back of my hand. but the shoes left, like everything does, taking the girl, tripping along with them. then another pair of shoes came along. they were on the feet of a man with a face like the protagonist from delicatessen... and who was also in amelie. not quite so strange looking as him though. those shoes made me depressed. they were hiking shoes. they were well-worn from being out, fulfilling their purpose, doing what they loved. they didn't want to be there on that bus in the city. i felt sorry for them. after a bit, the man moved seats. maybe he didn't like the way that i was looking at his shoes.
last but not least, cheesecake is good. i still have more than half of it left though. what ever shall i do with it?
firstly, no packages today :( i got my acrylicana jewelry from my sister and my elliott smith hoodie from myself on friday. i'm expecting to get something in the mail from ishmael very soon. birthdays presents are nice, not because i need material things -usually if there is something i want, i will just buy it for myself - but because it shows that someone was thinking of you at a time when you weren't in the same room together and weren't actively speaking with eachother. that makes me feel good. lately, especially, in the midst of falling back into depression, it is nice to know that i am thought of occasionally, by a few people at least, whether it's my birthday or not. receiving mail must be one of my favorite things in the world. if anyone really wants to make my day, either send me mail or make me some sort of art, i live for those things. i was thinking about getting back in to doing mail swaps again. it was always fun to work on some silly holiday card or collage or themed art for someone and to get one or more of the same in return. it's an extremely pleasurable way to kill time. unfortunately, i'm not good with deadlines. and it's not quite the same as receiving personal mail from someone, or art from someone that you personally know. i treasure all of the little scraps that people have made for me. i rarely give anyone else anything i have made though, other than swaps, because... well... usually because it's not good enough. that, and i have trouble letting things go.
secondly, i had living on a prayer stuck in my head the entirety of the day, from this morning, watching a video of amanda palmer and jason webley covering it. doing laundry, going to starbucks, sitting on the bus, walking around the streets of seattle, i had playing in my head over and over "TAKE MY HAND, WE'LL MAKE IT, I SWEAR! WHOOOOA LIVING ON A PRAYER!" i just wanted to bust out all over the place.
thirdly, other than that, today was really lovely. there wasn't a bit of it that wasn't lovely. even doing laundry was lovely, other than i think i gave everyone a bit of a free show by accidentally scooping up the front of the skirt that i was wearing into my armful of laundry. it's amusing though, so, i suppose it's lovely too. i keep reminding myself of a Sylvia Plath quote, "Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I've taken for granted". i have to remind myself of it almost constantly. i guess, in a sort of stupid way, i am thinking "whatever is happening right this very moment, it may not be the best thing that has ever happened to you, but it may be the best thing that ever happens from here on out. it is entirely possible that nothing this good will ever happen again, so pay attention." but not only that. i am trying to just enjoy things. everything, in fact. i'm trying not to take things so seriously, i'm trying to live in the moment and not worry so much. it seems counter-intuitive to have to force yourself to go with the flow, but when you have spent the better part of your life fighting against the flow, it can be really difficult to just let go and live. that doesn't mean not to TRY. there is a difference. you still have to try for things, otherwise there is no point to life, and you probably won't get anything that you want. i just can't get caught up so much in things that feel like failures.
fourth...ly, the bus. the bus. the bus. i don't know if i have been on a bus that crowded before. i'm sure i have, but i wasn't so aware of it. i was proud of myself for not having my head reeling in an agoraphobic fit. i thought of easter and whole foods and very nearly having a full fledged panic attack because there were so many people, and i couldn't get away. that was probably one of my worst moments. but, it was not so bad today. the worst of it was that i had some random persons ass in my face for half the ride. that might have been be best of it, had the ass not belonged to a middle-aged woman. but no, the worst of it was the lady that went by, rolling her suitcase along behind her, and i tried to move my legs out of her way, and my hip went out, and i spent the next two minutes silently and i suppose, inconspicuously clutching my hip and the muscles that were cramping around it, in such intense pain that i really thought i was going to vomit. that was the worst of it. but it went away after a bit and the rest of the ride was nice. it was quiet. with music in my left ear, and no inane yip-yap from random bus-goers in the right. sitting across from people you don't know is always somewhat awkward. there is nowhere to look really. i look at their shoes. there was a girl across from me with cute, brown flats on. i stared at that girls shoes so hard she might have felt me burning through them. before she got off the bus, i had a connection to those shoes. i knew those shoes like i know these woods like i know the back of my hand. but the shoes left, like everything does, taking the girl, tripping along with them. then another pair of shoes came along. they were on the feet of a man with a face like the protagonist from delicatessen... and who was also in amelie. not quite so strange looking as him though. those shoes made me depressed. they were hiking shoes. they were well-worn from being out, fulfilling their purpose, doing what they loved. they didn't want to be there on that bus in the city. i felt sorry for them. after a bit, the man moved seats. maybe he didn't like the way that i was looking at his shoes.
last but not least, cheesecake is good. i still have more than half of it left though. what ever shall i do with it?
